Chatter In My Head

by Tom Parkes

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All songs written and performed by Tom Parkes
Produced by Tom Parkes
Mastered by Mercury Mastering
Album Artwork by Trent Holbrook

Vocals on Live Slow, Die Whenever by Kelsey Kaplan
Drums on Chatter In My Head & Live Slow, Die Whenever by Bas Janssen
© [2015] [Tom Parkes]


Lyrics~~

Thinking About Tomorrow:

Staying silent, I might go insane
As the sun pokes through, but it's still pouring rain
And this bottle of booze gives me a peculiar smile
And telling me to write her a song so maybe she would stay a while

It's Christmas Eve, and I'm dressed my best
I got a cannonball for a heart in my chest
And the clock keeps ticking, reminding me that there's still time
I've been up all night, hoping that she'd be mine

She's got a smile that shines, a laugh that sings
I know I'm drunk, but I mean all of these things
And the beat of my heart has a thump
Like my body wants to sound an alarm
I'm just thinking about tomorrow and wishing I had her in my arms

Thoughts are swimming, I can feel the fatigue
I got this little inclination that she's out of my league
So now I'm spilling my soul, confirming what she knew all along
And I’m just sitting in the middle of what went right and what went wrong

You're underrated, that's understood
You're just living life like they wish they could
And you could tear down my walls, I promise I'd still stay inside
So I guess you're my moon, cause you're starting to control my tides

You got a smile that shines, a laugh that sings
I know I'm drunk, but I meant all of those things
And the beat of my heart has a thump
Like my body wants to sound an alarm
And I'm just thinking about tomorrow and wishing I had you in my arms
I'm just thinking about tomorrow and wishing I had you in my arms
I'm just thinking about tomorrow, wishing I had you in my arms



Chatter In My Head:

Never felt so all alone
In a mind that’s not my own
Faded underneath the sky of a dying day

Wishing I could disappear
I didn’t think I’d see you here
And now I’m flooded with the memories of our past,
My missed chance, and that damaged love that wasn’t built to last

Biting down my nails
Trying to prove that I don’t care
But you never talked so smooth or looked so good

We’re keeping all our updates vague
I got this feeling I can’t shake
I wanna pull you in my arms just one last time
And whisper quiet, "I only let you go because I knew you wouldn’t mind"

All these things that I won't know
Should I have ever let you go?
I’m in a place inside my mind
Where all my hope gets euthanized

Should I try to make things right?
Are you seeing other guys?
Do you think of me as much as I do you?

I’m standing in a crowded room
And all my eyes can see is you
I wanna pull you in my arms just one last time
And whisper quiet, "I know I let you go but you didn’t even fight"

All these things that I won't know
Should I have ever let you go?
I’m in a place inside my mind
Where all my hope gets euthanized

You won’t feel very lonesome
If you don’t feel your emotion
No you won’t feel very lonesome
If you don’t feel your emotions

So please just roll one up again
Dilute the chatter in my head
Pretend that everything’s fine
Way too caught up in this game
I wonder if you feel the same
Or if everything’s fine?

You won’t feel very lonesome (everything’s fine)
If you don’t feel your emotion (everything’s fine)
No you won’t feel very lonesome (everything’s fine)
If you don’t feel your emotions (everything’s fine)


Destination:Home

Praying that this traffic won’t ever break
I’m on the dreaded route back to my hometown
Where the ghost of my former me
Comes alive to haunt my mind with an urgency
Slithering on in a three lane race
Where the lines of cars form a toxic snake
It’s still better than where I’m going
I got a low tank of gas and a destination: home
Destination home
Where all my demons roam
Where all my demons roam

I’m avoiding people that I just can’t see
And there’s top drawer filled with all bad memories
Of something I have worked so hard to shed
Oh it brings me back to what I wanna move past
I can’t go home again

Listening to Elliott Smith through my phone
Cause the radio sucks and my speakers are blown
I think it’s funny how the saddest songs make me feel so good
Counting it down it’s my Old Year’s Eve
And the ball has dropped on exit 33
I guess there’s nowhere else for me to go
I got a tank glowing E and a destination: home
Destination home
Where all my demons roam
Where all my demons roam

I’m avoiding people that I just can’t see
And there’s top drawer filled with all bad memories
Of something I have worked so hard to shed
Oh it brings me back to what I wanna move past
I can’t go home again



Live Slow, Die Whenever

Long are my days without you here
I'm just passing over thoughts I'd like to float into your ear
So I wait for the night to collide and feed me with a dream
I don't remember much of them, but you always are the theme

I was so stranded, but I'm so glad I landed right there next to you, even though we're through

Cause now I'm singing
Live slow, die whenever
With a thank you to the pain for introducing me to pleasure
I'm just singing
Live slow, die whenever
With no worries for the ending cause I know that we all shine forever

I can't sleep, my lips are weak, so here's some truth
If I could choose from them all I swear, I’d always still choose you
There are things I regret, but my time with you never will be one
Cause drifting far away from you is just a setting of the sun

I was so stranded, but I’m so glad I landed right there next to you, even though we're through

Cause now I’m singing
Live slow, die whenever
With a thank you to the pain for introducing me to pleasure
I’m just singing
Live slow, die whenever
With no worries for the ending cause I know that we all shine forever

And we all rise together -
There was no warning for this message I got at five o'clock in the morning
When my mind was quiet, the birds were singing
A song I know called how you should be living
Only in this moment, unbelievably free
Without the weight of the person you pretend to be
Oh yeah now that's what I need
Oh that’s what we need

We just gotta live slow, die whenever (now I know there’s pleasure)
Live slow, die Whenever (and I may die whenever)
Live slow, die whenever (but we all rise together)
Live slow, die whenever (we all shine forever)

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released July 8, 2015

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Track Name: Live Slow, Die Whenever (feat. Kelsey Kaplan)
Thinking About Tomorrow:

Staying silent, I might go insane
As the sun pokes through, but it's still pouring rain
And this bottle of booze gives me a peculiar smile
And telling me to write her a song so maybe she would stay a while

It's Christmas Eve, and I'm dressed my best
I got a cannonball for a heart in my chest
And the clock keeps ticking, reminding me that there's still time
I've been up all night, hoping that she'd be mine

She's got a smile that shines, a laugh that sings
I know I'm drunk, but I mean all of these things
And the beat of my heart has a thump
Like my body wants to sound an alarm
I'm just thinking about tomorrow and wishing I had her in my arms

Thoughts are swimming, I can feel the fatigue
I got this little inclination that she's out of my league
So now I'm spilling my soul, confirming what she knew all along
And I’m just sitting in the middle of what went right and what went wrong

You're underrated, that's understood
You're just living life like they wish they could
And you could tear down my walls, I promise I'd still stay inside
So I guess you're my moon, cause you're starting to control my tides

You got a smile that shines, a laugh that sings
I know I'm drunk, but I meant all of those things
And the beat of my heart has a thump
Like my body wants to sound an alarm
And I'm just thinking about tomorrow and wishing I had you in my arms
I'm just thinking about tomorrow and wishing I had you in my arms
I'm just thinking about tomorrow, wishing I had you in my arms



Destination:Home

Praying that this traffic won’t ever break
I’m on the dreaded route back to my hometown
Where the ghost of my former me
Comes alive to haunt my mind with an urgency
Slithering on in a three lane race
Where the lines of cars form a toxic snake
It’s still better than where I’m going
I got a low tank of gas and a destination: home
Destination home
Where all my demons roam
Where all my demons roam

I’m avoiding people that I just can’t see
And there’s top drawer filled with all bad memories
Of something I have worked so hard to shed
Oh it brings me back to what I wanna move past
I can’t go home again

Listening to Elliott Smith through my phone
Cause the radio sucks and my speakers are blown
I think it’s funny how the saddest songs make me feel so good
Counting it down it’s my Old Year’s Eve
And the ball has dropped on exit 33
I guess there’s nowhere else for me to go
I got a tank glowing E and a destination: home
Destination home
Where all my demons roam
Where all my demons roam

I’m avoiding people that I just can’t see
And there’s top drawer filled with all bad memories
Of something I have worked so hard to shed
Oh it brings me back to what I wanna move past
I can’t go home again



Chatter In My Head:

Never felt so all alone
In a mind that’s not my own
Faded underneath the sky of a dying day

Wishing I could disappear
I didn’t think I’d see you here
And now I’m flooded with the memories of our past,
My missed chance, and that damaged love that wasn’t built to last

Biting down my nails
Trying to prove that I don’t care
But you never talked so smooth or looked so good

We’re keeping all our updates vague
I got this feeling I can’t shake
I wanna pull you in my arms just one last time
And whisper quiet, "I only let you go because I knew you wouldn’t mind"

All these things that I won't know
Should I have ever let you go?
I’m in a place inside my mind
Where all my hope gets euthanized

Should I try to make things right?
Are you seeing other guys?
Do you think of me as much as I do you?

I’m standing in a crowded room
And all my eyes can see is you
I wanna pull you in my arms just one last time
And whisper quiet, "I know I let you go but you didn’t even fight"

All these things that I won't know
Should I have ever let you go?
I’m in a place inside my mind
Where all my hope gets euthanized

You won’t feel very lonesome
If you don’t feel your emotion
No you won’t feel very lonesome
If you don’t feel your emotions

So please just roll one up again
Dilute the chatter in my head
Pretend that everything’s fine
Way too caught up in this game
I wonder if you feel the same
Or if everything’s fine?

You won’t feel very lonesome (everything’s fine)
If you don’t feel your emotion (everything’s fine)
No you won’t feel very lonesome (everything’s fine)
If you don’t feel your emotions (everything’s fine)



Live Slow, Die Whenever

Long are my days without you here
I'm just passing over thoughts I'd like to float into your ear
So I wait for the night to collide and feed me with a dream
I don't remember much of them, but you always are the theme

I was so stranded, but I'm so glad I landed right there next to you, even though we're through

Cause now I'm singing
Live slow, die whenever
With a thank you to the pain for introducing me to pleasure
I'm just singing
Live slow, die whenever
With no worries for the ending cause I know that we all shine forever

I can't sleep, my lips are weak, so here's some truth
If I could choose from them all I swear, I’d always still choose you
There are things I regret, but my time with you never will be one
Cause drifting far away from you is just a setting of the sun

I was so stranded, but I’m so glad I landed right there next to you, even though we're through

Cause now I’m singing
Live slow, die whenever
With a thank you to the pain for introducing me to pleasure
I’m just singing
Live slow, die whenever
With no worries for the ending cause I know that we all shine forever

And we all rise together -
There was no warning for this message I got at five o'clock in the morning
When my mind was quiet, the birds were singing
A song I know called how you should be living
Only in this moment, unbelievably free
Without the weight of the person you pretend to be
Oh yeah now that's what I need
Oh that’s what we need

We just gotta live slow, die whenever (now I know there’s pleasure)
Live slow, die Whenever (and I may die whenever)
Live slow, die whenever (but we all rise together)
Live slow, die whenever (we all shine forever)