released May 25, 2017

All songs written by Tom Parkes

Recorded at Studio Wormwood
Audio Engineer: Dave Kaminsky

Mastered at Altered Ear

Drums by Bas Janssen

Album Artwork by Hooked Up Art & Design

Lyrics ~~~~~~~

Caffeine Thoughts:

I’m on Court and Main,
I feel the weather change
I stare at sidewalk cracks as the cars pass in the lane
While I wait for you and your caffeine thoughts,
I won’t waste my time fighting what just can’t be fought

In our polished masks,
We break down the wall between you and me
With a silent scream you tell me who you would’ve been
If it wasn’t for the blood filled race
And that freaks me out cause all I really know’s the chase

I’m so scared to love again
Cause I know how this all ends,
But I’ll let you in

Now I build you up inside my head
And search for signs inside those fire eyes,
Ignoring every flag that’s red
Until we slowly die like these autumn leaves
And I look for some way out and anything to blame but me

I’m so scared to love again
Cause I know how this all ends,
I know how this all ends,
But I’ll let you in

Let Go or Drag:

There’s a sign on your door
I’ve been here before
It reads, “beware of old friends living inside of your head”

You’re changing, you’re not yourself

Every corner and crack fills with dread of your past
Bottle up and explode inside so nobody knows you’re changing

You’re not the pain in your heart or fear in your mind
I see right through your disguise
Searching for saving in something else
When all along it’s in yourself

Deep inside you’ll find there’s nowhere to stand
And all must go, so either let go or drag
And I just always drag

Deep inside you’ll find there’s nowhere to stand
And all must go, so either let go or drag

Rhythm in Reverse:

A lot to stay but I hold back my words
So the rhythm of our days is getting closer to reverse
With things inside that no one knows
Like all the laughter is covering our pain
I’m so afraid to walk away
Every time’s the same

A loaded gun protects our fragile hearts
So flags are bleeding red and it just fills my mind with doubt
Longing for the way things were
When everything your felt, I felt the same
And we were opened up to change
Every time’s the same

We rent a room inside our heads
Where it’s furnished with the lies
That we say to ourselves at night
To push the truth away and help us stay alive

Now that days are passing by like I knew they would
I try to think of yesterdays,
But it don’t do us any good
So much more that we could be
I got an explanation for our love’s decay
But I just need to walk away
Every time’s the same

It’s all over now
My mind is filled with doubt
And so much left to say
But I just need to walk away
Every time’s the same

Dear Lb,:

I am writing to reach your somehow
It’s been four years of silence, guilt, and doubt
Contemplating how I can right my wrongs
I’m so sorry Lb, for stringing you along

I was a war fighting mind versus heart
Clearly broken and thirsty for some love
So I drank from your well till it ran dry
I’m so sorry Lb, for who I was inside

Now I just need to reach you someway,
So I release this song to the airwaves
And hope my words can find your ears
So you can know that i still dream about you dear
About your love so pure,
About your perfect mind,
How you have turned into everything I’m dying to find
I’m stuck here frozen in time
Screaming, “I hope you’re alright”

Glimpse at Truth:

In time you’ll find you’re guessing
All the things you thought you knew
For the price of losing your mind
You’ll get a glimpse at truth

There’s a buzzin’ inside your bones
You’ll only feel if you free your soul
From the tyranny of your master, Mind
You’ll see that the man in the sky
Has always been a lie
And the answers that you seek
Are somewhere buried deep inside
Beneath the stories you tell
And the mask you hold so high

In time you’ll find you’re guessing
All the things you thought you knew
For the price of losing your mind
You’ll get a glimpse at truth

So I slip the seed upon my tongue
To bring me back into the moment where this all began
And I discovered there’s something deep inside my soul
I felt a pulse through the earth,
A sense of what we’re worth,
And a light inside my eyes I could interpret as rebirth
That kept me covered from rain as I walked on through a storm

Now my life has got me guessing
All the things I thought I knew
For the price of losing my mind
I got a glimpse at truth

It’s got me digging inside
It’s got me seeing trees breathe
It’s got me learning how heaven and hell
Are both inside of me
It’s got me feeling the love that I bottled so deep
When the entire world kept feeding all my greed

It’s got me out of my mind
It’s got me seeing trees breathe
It’s got me learning how heaven and hell
Are both inside of me
It’s got me feeling the love that I bottled so deep
When the entire world kept feeding all my greed

I know I’ll never know
But I can close my eyes
Take a deep breath
And try to open my soul